That’s it folks

I am leaving the country tomorrow! and the family will follow in a minutely planned logistical operation during the summer. Having secured a position as Technical Manager at one of Englands top Uniform Suppliers, the future promises both challenge and inspiration.

Having already lived in England for 14 years of my working life it is not really a bid deal for me, but I am grateful that my husband and youngest daughter who have not had this experience before are willing to give it a go. We have been planning our lifes in a ”double track” kind of way since last August when we first had the idea that we should move. Applying for jobs in both countries and letting fate decide  whether to stay or go. England delivered!

Of course it will be a bit hard to be separated, but we will see each other every three weeks and then in July/August we will all be together again, in a different town and a different house. Watch this space for news 🙂

We will miss many things, and other things not so much. Our door will of course always be open should any of our friends wish to visit Burbage in Leicestershire, UK

Good bye Sweden.

 

 

Annonser

Ten years in Sweden

3650 days ago this morning, I was standing on the tarmac outside the terminal at Gothenburg City Airport feeling excited and petrified at the same time. I had left the UK after 14 years, my adult life thus far, and dragged my children away from their father, their friends and familiar surroundings. I had three never agains in my mind. I would never again renovate an old house, never again get married and never again was I going to have a baby. Today I am living with my new husband in a renovated house from 1926 and the family grew from four to five with the arrival of Beatrice as early as 2008!

In some ways, it feels like no time at all, and in others like it is a bit unreal. Certainly life could have been easier for us as a family. We have faced periods of, through no fault of our own, unemployment that has meant having to say no much more than we would have liked. For me it has been a challenge on a personal level to find myself in this position, but an even greater challenge for me as a parent. It would have been nice to have had the opportunity to be generous to my daughters. To take them on trips, to allow them to try every interest they wanted, to have a more active life I suppose. Happiness has been present of course in family life and all the magical, clever, philosophical people I have met these years, many of whom I will carry with me forever. You know who you are ❤

Achievments and failures
During these ten years I have had many great years as a designer. I travelled across Europe and got to visit both New York and Miami on several occasions. One highlight was being able to go to the Metropolitan Museum in NY when the exhibition about the spectacular creations by Alexander McQueen opened. I still have the little metallic admissions button in my jewellery case. I have lived through the flare and then demise of a creative business venture. I have trained for two years to become a Digital Marketing specialist and I have had my first short story published in a proper book. Ups and downs in capital letters, but as with everything seen in retrospect it has changed me profoundly and made me a better human.

Love and loss
A sign of age, or just plain old life, is that people that have been there for all of your conscious time start to die. In passing they remind you that your time will come one day and they send a little sharp needle of guilt into your heart that you could have been more present in their life. By the time the needle strikes it is too late, was for me anyway. I so could have made more and regular calls to my Nan, but let it slip through the logistics of domestic life. May I remember this feeling when I am 90+ and waiting for my grandchildren to call! My eldest will be leaving home this summer which means I get to experience the first ”loss” that way. But this loss is also filled with my love for her and my complete confidence in her ability to create and manage her life and future.

A dogs’ life Charlie
3,5 years ago we became proud foster parents to a beautiful Labrador who we named Charlie. We trained him in social situations to prepare him for his future life as a guide dog for the blind. And we loved him all the way to the moon and back. After a separation of nine months Charlie came back to us. He had hurt his leg and needed an operation and could not be placed. We had already bought the Flatcoated bundle of fluff Buddha, but could not turn Charlie down. He did not heal the way he should and life became centred on rehab and trying to meet both the dogs’ needs with training, exercise and rehab. Buddha went to live with family whilst we focused on Charlie and may still come back to us. Sadly our brave, clever Charlie could not be mended and last Friday we had to put him to sleep as he had hurt his knee once again and could not use his leg. The sorrow and sadness is too great to be described.

The light at the end of the tunnel
seems to have appeared at last. If all the pieces fall into place as we want, then a better and happier time lie at our feet. The news is just not quite ready to be shared yet 🙂  In one of my favourite songs, one of the lines is “they talk to you like you are a helicopter, and you know that you´re a plane”… Well this plane, after a long time in the helicopter hangar, is on the tarmac waiting for the all clear from the tower, engines revving, ready to take off!

 

 

 

Guess is the learn and learn is actually the guess!

In the face of a rapidly changing society where gadgets and technology exist that can do more things than we are able to cope with the above statement sums it all up. It is an old truth, but still valid. We learn by guessing how things go together and it is the process of learning, ie the guessing, that gives the knowledge meaning. What good is knowledge if you don´t use it but merely cram it in and store it?

The fact is of course that we need both. Without factual knowledge about how things work, I mean both technical inventions and historical events, how can we hope to create a better future? But as obvious as this may seem, we have created, or are allowing to continue, a world that premiers greed and inconsideration.

  • Americans seem prepared to vote a chauvinistic buffoon for presidential candidate somehow making the leap of thought that if you have money you automatically have the integrity and diplomatic negotiator skills to run America. I dare not even think what damage he will do to the world L
  • Year 2016 we still have people that starve, that lack access to clean water and sanitation and nations that passively accept or promotes social injustice based on a person’s gender or beliefs.
  • Most of us are not living a life of integrity where you say, mean and actually act upon what you say is your moral compass.

Maybe I have too much time on my hands, maybe I read too many books, I don´t know but like so  many others I have started to shake my head at the world. Specifically at how the world is described to us in popular media. Media consumed through lack of time in the everlasting quest for happiness through external stimulation and attention.  We could try a society based on compassion and actual absolute regard for human life and integrity like:

  1. Causing harm to others is a bad thing, a pretty simple rule to remember.
  2. We don´t need half of what we have, decide what you need and go for a quality product that does not cause harm to people or nature at any stage in its lifecycle.
  3. Use less energy. It´s easy if you try.
  4. Premier people and companies that have embraced sustainability and circular economy.

I am not saying people should not be able to profit, merely that we should aim for that prosperity to come from ideas and enterprises that enhance humankind and the environment, equally, on a global scale.

I am guessing that we have not learned enough from history. I am guessing that we are only able to find a sustainable way forward by holding up our hands and admitting we have got it wrong. I am guessing the future I want for my children lie in a society based on compassion, empathy and sustainability. I am guessing that most people struggle to visualise a society not based on stock market reports, me to. I have learned though that I don´t like what I see. I have also learned that if I keep guessing and questioning I will understand more, and every guess based learn I tuck under my belt gets me closer to a better understanding of what my contribution can be in the big scheme of things.

This got a bit more serious than intended so I compensate with a picture of my cat.

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// Jeanette

The title is a quote from the very clever Edvin Lock.

 

Det där med kärlek

Idag firar vi tio år sedan vi blev kära, min älskade och jag. Det var ett precist och utmejslat ögonblick då vi båda kände att, NU, där hände det något mellan oss. Såklart har det inte bara varit solsken de här åren. Men det goda har vunnit över och  vi har en både stabil och innerlig relation.

Då jag hade ett kraschat äktenskap bakom mig sedan innan tyckte jag det var lite synd att vi träffades så snart som vi gjorde. Hade väl tänkt få lite distans och inte binda mig igen på en gång. ”Ring när du är redo” sa han då för han ville ha mig på riktigt, inte på lösa premisser. Det var modigt tyckte jag och föll lite mer…

Vardagen har såklart tagit över, som den gör. Men vi anstränger oss att bygga på vår relation och hitta sätt att ha kul. Vi har nyligen börjat bugga igen, något vi båda gjort som unga, och vi har så kul tillsammans. Vilket spiller över och även gör oss till gladare människor och föräldrar.

Jag föll för trygghet och snällhet den där höstdagen 2005. Föll för lojalitet och den där känslan av att han alltid skulle sätta oss (familjen) först. Men mest av allt föll jag nog för den där intuitiva känslan av självklarhet. Med honom skulle jag alltid kunna vara mig själv och bli älskad för den jag är.

Idag, med tio år i bagaget kan jag bara konstatera att den där känslan var korrekt. Yttre faktorer påverkar inte den kärlek, lust, förståelse och samhörighet som finns mellan oss. Jag hoppas att jag nu inte jinxat det hela i universum utan att vi har typ 40+ år kvar tillsammans.:)

// J